I consider myself a pretty honest person. Haha! Not pretty and honest, just pretty honest. So let's be honest here. Today on this friday, with the week coming to an end I am feeling a little down. Now I know my last post wasn't too exciting, and a little bit comlainy, but here we go again. Last week end we went to Highland Utah to visit friends. We had some good old family time with Kelly all weekend. Then we came home on Monday. Kelly went to the firestation on Tuesday, moved trailers until later on Wednesday, went back to the station yesterday, and is now currently moving trailers. He will get home around 5:00, and tomorrow he will move more trailers.
So yesterday I got distracted and now i have to finish my post. Lucky for me Kelly isn't moving trailers today, but the day's not over yet and there is a chance he will leave. Now I am not complaining that my husband has a job in this time of economic crisis, but I am saying that life gets harder and harder the longer he's gone. Kenzie has been sick for a couple of days with a fever that comes and goes. I can always tell when Kelly has been gone too much by how sassy she is too. Ky has also had a few fevers along with being VERY fussy. I don't go a lot of places because it gets too hard with four kids. Mostly because there are two babies. Yesterday we went to the park with a few friends, and I ended up leaving early because Karsyn and Ky were both crying non stop. While we were there I was told I look tore up these days. Also I looked around at friends who are at different fazes in life and couldn't help but feel a little envious. My sisters and a group of ladies go running together, and I feel a little left out, but there is no way I can go. I do try to laugh things off like the fact that I look tore up most days, but every now and then I feel like having a little pitty party. The big reason I look tore up is becauseI feel like nothing fits me so I just wear comfortable clothes. I try to be patient with getting my body back, but let's face it..... I JUST WANT MY BODY BACK! Now don't get me wrong. I love my life, my husband, and my children, but can't I complain a little? Now that I got all of that out I promise that my next post will have fun pictures, and no complaining!
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It always feels better to get it off your chest! Don't worry, it will all come together. Not saying I have it together at all, but we do make it out a lot more and my clothes finally fit. Just look ahead a few months! I too am envious of Moms with older kids.
There! don't you feel better now! It is hard see people who get a full night sleep, can go running without worrying about childcare, and have a husband who work normal hours. but, we are blessed, you have beautiful healthy children, and we miss seeing you already!
ok now i dont have four kids but I kinda know what u feel like.. I swear it was like two years before i left the house, I was always tore up.. and I just did not feel free to go anywhere because the girls always acted up and were too little to know better and it was especially hard to go places without Sam... but it makes days like today so special.. I never thought I could go to the mall with both my girls and be ok.. I know it sucks.. but a year from now things will be different..do stuff in the mean time to make you feel special.. like when Kelly is home go buy a new outfit and do a GNO... things to make you feel like KARA again! I love you and you will totally overcome this!!!
Girl! I am so glad to hear someone bitch a little in a blog and not just pretend that all is well in zion! Cuz' it's not! I feel ya on most of this but I only have half the kids! I'll tell you what you need...a double jogger stroller! I have one (only because Brett's aunt gave us one) and it keeps me sane. Running is theeee only way I have ever lost a significant amount of weight. If I can't do it with our'em...damn it, I'll do it with'em! Meanwhile, do your best to be grateful for a husband who works too much. I know I'm workin' on that one too! Love you! XO
I love your honesty...i miss our talks this would have been one of them!
Hang in there. The thing to remember is the grass always looks greener on the other side. Find comfort in knowing we all have challenges, though they may be different, we all have those aspects of our lives we wish we could change.
I think back to the General Conference talk about stopping to smell the roses and have to remind myself of that from time to time. Years from now, what do you want to look back and remember? For me, is it that I must always have a made bed and picked up house? Or is it reading to my kids and making memories? I don't always make the right choice, but I am trying and that, somedays, is the most we can do. :)
I hear ya! Especially about the clothes and getting my body back! Maybe we can get together during track break while we are both husbandless!
Need a good laugh (or giggle!) go to http://stephaniereece.blogspot.com/ under Stephanie's lists and read the "mommy tips" they can put a (small) smile on your face once in a while! LOL! Being Mom is tough, and the nice thing is, everyone can relate!
Wow, I'm not alone!! I love you girl!! My hubby's gone for the next 5 months total possibly 7 if he goes to DC after training, so let's hang out and cheer eachother up!! Also, if it makes you feel betyter, Goldy threw a monster fit in a restraunt last night, everyone was looking, so I don't take the kids out much, except the park, and whatnot. Anyhow, I know how you feel. You do have 4 kids, I can barely do 3! Now more than ever, I appreciate my MOM, I'm sure you feel the same way! Hey, my number is 431-3217, I don't have yours now since you moved. I want to have a playday ASAP. Got it? I'll call Emily, and others too
Kara I understand ya. I hope you have a good day today because you deserve. I don't think you could ever look "tore" up!
It does always make you feel better to get all that off your chest. i wish i were that brave and didn't worry about what others thought. I bet it's hard. i don't have kids yet, but admire those that do, and do it well!! I hope it passes and you can get some needed time to you. your clothes will fit soon enough, give it time. You are a cutie and i hope your having a good day, you do deserve it! Your beautiful!!!
Just remember - you are a rockstar Kar Bear. You are seriously my idol when I think of mothers (and I often use you as an example of handling it all and THEN SOME). Good for you for realizing what's bothering you and getting it out there - I hope you feel better and I miss you!!!
I have never seen you look tore up EVER!! Even in comfy clothes I am sure you look hot!! I know how you feel though, there are some days where you just want to escape for a little while so you can have your brain back!! I think most of us "real" Mom's can say we have been there, are there or will be there again soon!! :) Hang in there
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